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I'm almost home."
The sun left behind white streaks as it shone through the early
evening clouds. The different shades
of green found in the trees that lined
the highway were bright and soothing,
filling Sarah with the comforting
joys that spring brought. A sharp
wind whistled and moaned as it forced
its way through the open car window;
Sarah leaned her elbow against it,
her manner quiet and reflective as
she tapped her fingers, letting the
upbeat song on the radio better her
wonderful mood. She had not a care
in the world at the moment, for even
the highway was devoid of the usual
midday traffic.
Yes, returning home would be blissful. She had a new apartment
in New York, but if one asked her
where her home was she always said
"Highland Grove." Sure,
it was small and unnoticeable, hardly
a dot on a road map, but she held
her most important memories there.
Even as the sun glared through the
windshield, making a partial silhouette
of the scenery before her, she did
not peel her vision from the horizon.
Over that hill and beyond
, she would vaguely say in her mind
through images and feelings, beyond
this futility I have left behind,
beyond the constraints, beyond the
labyrinth of confusion, there is my
house, in the middle of that little
town, and I am coming back to it,
if only for awhile. I am going to
escape and forget what is there for
me in New York and I am going to take
full advantage of my visit. If only
for two days, I will no longer be
plagued by the future. She
imagined a little boy, pacing in his
room, tugging at his mother's shirt,
begging, not in words (for her thoughts
were not that developed) but in expression,
in motion, begging for his mother
to bring his sister home more quickly.
A cake sat on the counter in the kitchen,
and this little boy who was harboring
on five years would make a sneaky
approach to this cake and dip a small
finger into the cloud like frosting;
he would close his lips about the
digit and reveal a satisfied smile,
not so much for the flavor, but the
mischief involved with the action
of taking a forbidden taste. He
would stare out the window, he would
skip across the porch, he would turn
hours into days while awaiting his
sister's arrival-- all of these things
she knew would happen in all of the
detail she had vaguely pictured in
her mind, for Sarah knew her brother
well enough to predict every aspect
of his character, every action he
might take. She pictured all of this
knowingly, and still wondered at the
complexity of a child; instead of
turning a frown upon her lack of understanding,
she smiled, reveling in the mystery
that slowly solved itself each moment
she was around him. Sarah impatiently
looked toward the short-term future
as much as her young sibling, Toby,
must have been on this day-- his birthday.
She couldn't wait to give him his gift; she had run
across it while browsing in a unprofitable craft shop in downtown
New York. Her gaze had been idle, her intent not to spend
money, yet, suddenly, there it had stood magnificently among
the other plainer figurines, as if wanting her to see it.
It was as if an implacable memory had reached its long white
arm out to her and tapped her on the shoulder, the words of
yesteryear blowing like a cool breeze through her ears, saying,
"Take it, take it....this thing, you know he will like."
Her hand had rushed to grab it, the movement independent of
any conscious thought. She rubbed her fingers across the powder-fine
grain of the ceramic, touched the rough gemstone eyes, caressed
the soldered metal accents. Nothing in the world might have
pried it from her grip at that moment, and she had instantly
bought it, without any second thoughts.
It was one of the few wonders that had presented itself
in her new home. New York was a daily growing disappointment.
When she had journeyed there five years ago in the old family
station wagon, she had looked at the city streets in awe,
imagining that she would someday be walking down those streets
on the way to a movie shoot. Her aspirations were way over
the top; she had ended up struggling through acting classes
with a teacher that beat down her aspirations in an attempt
to beat down the pre-madonna in her, many studios had refused
to even allow her an audition while none had even accepted
her for even a small part, and she had ended up accepting
a job as a commercial actress just to pay her increasing debts.
Sarah looked at the clock on the dashboard and saw
that she was only five minutes away from entering town. It
had only been five years ago that she had rushed away to New
York in order to escape ordinary life; an ordinary life that
had made itself painfully apparent after her encounter with
the Goblin King.
The Goblin King resided in a land
called the Underground. It was a special
place that existed beyond the human
realm.... A place somewhat likened
to a mirror image of the known world--not
physically, but inwardly.... An Underground
in which magic was a vagrant looking
for an employer, creatures were unafraid
of giving vocal opinions, and the
land sprouted forth castles, villages,
forests, and bazaar circumstances....
An alternate world whose black night
sky revealed an immense, silver moon,
while a flaming sun came to burn at
the crack of dawn...
Here had begun the incident, four
years earlier, in which a fifteen
year-old Sarah, believing the Underground
was merely fantasy, had held her bawling,
baby brother Toby towards the sky,
high towards the ceiling of his nursery,
and called out the eternal words that
would give the Goblin King permission
to take the child away. Without hesitation,
he had taken the burden of her baby
brother from her. With a horror-stricken
face she watched as twittering little
creatures crept into the room, as
a mad owl pounded upon the glass door
of the nursery. The wind and rain
lashed at her face on that stormy
night as the owl finally beat open
the doors and changed into a form
much more menacing and mysterious.
She had pleaded to the silhouette
of a man who had come to her balcony
that night, begged with him to please
return her brother.... She hadn't
truly meant what she had said!
But no words, no matter how many tears accompanied them,
would sway the Goblin King. He taunted a glass sphere before
her on his dancing fingertips, the clock-like tick-tock of
his hands entrancing as well as intimidating her, the glistening
black pools in his eyes fixing her in place. She had two choices:
take his offering of dreams and fantasies as a replacement
for her brother, or travel through his Labyrinth with a maximum
of thirteen hours in which to reach his castle at the center,
and ultimately bring her brother home.
Sarah had taken the latter of the two, thus embarking
upon a journey she had never forgotten.
The highway made a sharp curve, the strip of road ahead
blocked by trees. Sarah turned the car left with the road
and inertia caused her body to slant to the right. She lessened
the pressure on the accelerator, warily watching the road
and squinting her eyes against the strong glare of the oppressive
sun.
The turn in the road ended and Sarah could see the
highway go uphill and disappear into the horizon, the sun's
dagger rays scattering across the asphalt. The light was
blinding, allowing her to see only the small strip of road
ahead. She pulled down the visor to relieve her of the bright
sun's glare and she was suddenly rewarded with full vision
of the highway.
A dark, heavyset person stood at the center of the
highway about a mile away, not showing any indication of moving.
Sarah anxiously stabbed at the horn on the steering wheel,
but they just faced her, not moving, not flinching. The car
was closing in, foot by endless foot; Sarah pressed firmly
down on the brakes in short bursts. The speedometer went
from fifty miles per hour to forty, then from there to thirty
and from thirty to twenty, until the needle pointed to zero
and the car was a yard away from whom it had nearly hit.
A few beads of sweat trickled down Sarah's forehead
as she let out a long sigh and rested her head wearily on
the steering wheel, still gripping it with tense, white hands.
Her head continuing to lay on the wheel, she reached underneath
it to turn off the car and hesitated in the middle of the
task.
"Need Sarah help," a familiar voice called
from outside.
Like so many peasants had done at the possible sight
of a miracle from the tombs of saints, Sarah jerked her head
with joyous reflex and stared in front of her. As she saw
who it was, her eyes widened beyond normal proportions and
her knuckles became even more ghostly. Her mouth suddenly
went dry and she unconsciously worked to wet it. Could she
truly be seeing this figure in the road? Was it a mirage
produced by the hot sun beating against the ebony highway?
"Ludo?" she mumbled uncertainly, afraid of
stepping from the car to find that it was only the trickery
of her imagination that brought this old friend back to her
in the middle of this deserted highway.
Yet she saw that it was Ludo, in all of his magnificent
detail. The beast was of about eight feet, the long, shaggy
fur on his back a rusty red in the sunlight, his frontal features
fighting against shadows. His broad, wistful face was scrunched
up in a pug nose while his large teeth protruded upward from
his lower lip. He indeed would look like a large beast, if
it were not for his strange, wistful smile and ridiculously
small eyes. He stretched his hands out toward her, palms up.
His warbling voice came out softly and bore a melancholy tone:
"Sarah.... Need Sarah help.... Need friend...."
She quickly opened the car door, having many feelings
at the same time, but not quite comprehending any of them
because extreme excitement overpowered them altogether. She
stepped out onto the highway and veered around.
Ludo was no longer there. She ran earnestly to the
front of the car and surveyed the deserted highway and the
area around it. There was nowhere for him to have gone. The
mirage had vanished as quickly and convincingly as it had
appeared. As her mind cleared somewhat, she started to realize
that she was standing in the middle of a highway and was an
easy target for a crash.
Sarah slowly removed her hands from her hips and walked
back to the car, the entire time looking back, expecting him
to be there as soon as she got inside.
She eased in and gingerly closed the door, pulling
her trembling hands in front of her eyes. It had been another
trying ordeal to accompany this suddenly trying day. She
put the key in the ignition and stared blankly at it as she
turned the car on. Was it all in her mind? As she looked up
from the steering wheel she blew a wisp of brown hair from
her face. The road in front of her was still forsaken, discluding
the notion that Ludo would reappear as soon as she had returned
to the haven of her vehicle.
As she put her foot to the gas, the feelings that she
had suppressed earlier started rushing back into her mind.
Sarah began to question her sanity and asked herself why she
would suddenly imagine that she had seen a friend from the
Labyrinth. Maybe it was the excitement of coming back home.
Splitting her attention between watching the road and thinking,
she looked at the opposing side of that question. What if
it wasn't her imagination?
She turned up the radio, a sudden uneasiness flooding
her. Where was that shred of evidence that would prove her
sanity? Of course, with things involving the Underground
anything was possible, but she hadn't seen her friends from
the Labyrinth since her junior year of high school. The years
had passed and the dreamlike world called the Underground
had faded into the misty depths of her memory. Of course,
she knew deep down that she had forced the memory away, trying
to forget that she had once had another world at her fingertips
and was made to sacrifice it for practicality and her love
of Toby. Nothing in the world would have made her change
her decision and to have forsaken Toby so that she could live
in the Underground, but she still wished there had been some
other way.
No, she had not forgotten, but life itself had crowded
so tightly into her brain that there was little room for anything
else. Especially her hopes and dreams. And, for her, the
Underground was just a hopeful dream that had come and passed
over a hazy period of thirteen hours.
She looked down with weary eyes at the dashboard. Her
gas tank was empty. "That's strange," she remarked
with a slight expression of confusion. "I filled it
only an hour ago." She looked up and, as if on cue,
the gas station at the county border became visible on the
edge of the horizon. The inclination to say "What luck"
rose and fell within Sarah as she thought of the statement's
possible eerie and displeasing connotation.
Is it happening again? she found
herself asking. If it is, I don't think I could handle
having to give it all up a second time.
Just as she approached the station, a dull, white sign
passed by her in a ghostlike flurry, its black cursive letters
declaring, "Welcome to Highland Grove." She had
passed that sign numerous times within the past year and only
noted its presence subconsciously. Yet, with that mild acknowledgment
came the thought that this particular journey did not make
her feel so welcomed.
Upon reaching the gas station she turned and pulled
up alongside the gas pumps. A man in a grungy jumpsuit approached
her from his workshop, wiping his hands on an oily rag. He
bent over to face her and said, smiling, "Can I help
you, ma'am?" She forced a nervous smile and replied,
"Fill-er-up, please."
"Sure thing." He tipped his cap and went
to work at filling her tank.
Sarah stared without focus through the windshield.
Something was nagging at the back of her mind, but she couldn't
pinpoint what it was. It was as if she was having a sudden
recognition of something, but the object she supposedly recognized
was not making itself apparent to her. It was deja'vu, melancholy
and rueful in nature. It made her want to reach out with
her hands and grab that thing that had caused it, to hold
on to it with all of her strength and to never let go. To
suppress her overwhelming urge to take hold of something substantial,
she clasped her fingers together tightly, holding herself
down in her foolish need. Yet, she felt that, if she could
hold onto the eluding source of her recollection, she would
have an ultimate grip on her life.
In an optimistic effort to relive that unknown piece
of her past, Sarah gave the area around her a sweeping glance.
She squinted her eyes against the glaring reflection of the
sun that emitted from her side view mirror. She unhooked
her fingers and went to reposition the reflecting piece of
glass; the light subsided and her eyes were drawn to the crisp
image of the man who was filling her tank.
He leaned on the back of her car as if it were his
own. His head was bent downward as he waited for the tank
to fill, the long, blond hair that covered his face pale in
the sunlight. He cupped his hands before himself, as if pondering
a translucent sphere that was held there. Her distraction
must have been so strong earlier, because she had not noticed
his striking air. She felt that she might reach out towards
him and pull a piece of the world from the canopy that surrounded
him, as if the imaginary globe he held contained all of her
hopes and dreams and he held it out before himself for the
taking...
She swung her head around suddenly
and looked back through the windshield.
She heard the man pull the nozzle
from the gas tank and head towards
the side window. The recognition's
source had been found. The click-clack
of his boots sounded like a drum in
her ears and drowned out the sound
of her own breathing. Like a messenger
of doom he came to her car window,
standing silently in front of it after
the abrupt ending of leather soles
against concrete. Still, his face
was out of reach from her sight and
only his torso could be seen through
the window. Each second was agony
for Sarah as she wondered whose countenance
the man possessed. Slowly, carefully,
he bent down, placing his crossed
arms onto the edge of the window as
his face eased its way into the image
framed by the opening.
"Anything else,
Sarah?" His lips were thin and straight, but his eyes
were flirtatious, humored by the sudden motion Sarah made
to push herself back into her seat. She stared anxiously
at him and groped around for her keys.
"What are you doing here?" she demanded
tonelessly with widening eyes. The Goblin King gave a coquettish
smile and his whispery eyebrows slanted upward on his brow.
His accent was smooth and entrancing. "Why, to see you."
She ran her fingers through her
hair and closed her eyes. It was all
she could do to get a grip on her
emotions. Why, after five
years, is Jareth visiting me? Is he
taunting me? Is it just a game? And
what does Ludo have to do with it?
And are the others all right? And...
Oh! There are so many questions!
"Are you okay ma'am?" The voice that came
was not that of Jareth's as it had been a moment before. She
hesitantly opened her eyes again, to find a different man
standing there with a look of concern on his face. The nightmare
was over. It wasn't Jareth standing before her, but a normal
man, hired to pump gas for waiting customers.
Yet, had it really happened? Was she going over the
edge?
She sighed and shook her head. "Um...yeah.
I'm fine. I-I just felt a little dizzy."
The wrinkle in his brow eased and he pressed her
further. "You sure? 'Cause I can get some help if you
need it." He stared at her as if she were a china doll
tottering on the mantel.
"Yeah, I'm okay..." She gripped the steering
wheel firmly to reassure herself that she was in reality.
"How much is the gas?"
Hesitantly, he let go of his worried expression, yet
he did not seem fully convinced that she had recovered. "Thirteen
fifty-six," he replied, as if the money were no longer
important.
As she dug in her purse he commented with false alacrity,
"You know, you had me worried there a minute, asking
me what I was doing here, 'n' all."
"I'm sorry," she mumbled absentmindedly as
she handed him the money. "I thought....I thought you
were someone else, that's all. I'm visiting my family for
the weekend, and...."
"Oh!" he exclaimed, forsaking his discomfort.
"I see. An old boyfriend, come to haunt you, I suppose."
"Something like that," she replied distantly
as she stared away from him and out of the windshield. No,
this had not been the first time that thoughts of the Underground
had haunted her. She had thought once before that time would
drag them away, but time had only made them more persistent
and troublesome in nature. Though she tried to deny it, vivid
dreams and nightmares had afflicted her for the past week,
and the past two occurrences of the day had fit neatly in
with the other disturbing reminders of the Goblin King.
Sarah noticed that the gas station employee's uneasiness
was returning at her thoughtful demeanor, so she forced herself
to return to the present situation. "As a matter of
fact, it was a lot like a boyfriend come to haunt me,"
she said in addition to her former answer to his question.
"I'm glad it was just my imagination." Suddenly
she realized that she was still holding the money, so she
proffered it to him. "Keep the change."
He took it earnestly. His interest in the matter vanished
as he counted the money, but he did not speak without warmth.
"Have a nice day."
"Same to you," Sarah answered with a forced
smile as she turned on the car and pulled out of the filling
station.
After she was back on the highway the man stuffed the
money in his pocket and stared at her departing car.
"Odd girl. Looks homesick."
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