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Sarah felt misplaced within the ballroom
and its masked dancers. It was a
masquerade ball, glittering and glamorous
and glorious in nature. Reality had
no place in this ballroom, and neither
did convention or propriety; it was
a magical and sensual place. The
writhing, dancing, laughing, and lavishly
dressed persons who crowded the room
were aware of nothing but their own
fantasies; indeed, they were even
a fantasy in their own one-sided existence.
The room warmed tremendously with
each second, due to the extreme heat
generated by their active bodies,
but even that was an illusion, for
their minds, their very lives, were
suppliant to the wishes of the crystal
sphere and the one who possessed it.
One figure stood out amongst all of
the glamour, mainly due to the fact
that she wore no mask. Her young,
gentle face not only portrayed the
sole innocence to be found in the
room, but her dress did as well--a
glittering glowing gown, the only
white to be found amongst the cream-
and scarlet-garnished dancers.
It was Sarah--Sarah,
alone and timid amongst all of the
vile displays that were presenting
themselves to her. The snake-like
slithering of the dancers enchanted
and frightened her, causing her to
unconsciously pull her arms about
herself. Everyone saw her discomfort
and relished in it, their laughter
bubbling over like pink champagne.
Wherever she desired to tread, they
made a combined effort to block her
path, and when she squeezed her way
through them, they laughed all the
harder.
It was Sarah--Sarah,
older and wiser the longer she stepped
through the crowd. She was looking
for something, but was unsure of what
it was that she truly desired. Then
she caught a glimpse of Jareth and
found her purpose; she shoved through
the crowd of dancers with more force
and determination, only to reach the
spot in which the Goblin King had
stood and find it empty. The eyes
of the dancers glittered merrily from
behind their masks, for they were
amused anew at her chase of the very
man that had created all of them.
It was at that moment that Sarah realized
that these were Jareth's playthings,
and they were laughing at her out
of spite. They spited her because
she was everything they were not--she
was still innocent, she was still
in control, and she was not wearing
a mask...and, because of all of these
things, Jareth found her more intriguing
than he did them. They spited her
because they had to fight for his
attentions by degrading themselves,
while all she had to do was avoid
his attentions to receive them.
Despite her realizations,
she felt she must catch him, must
beat him at his own game of cat and
mouse. She caught his image in a
mirror before her and turned around
to find him gone. Then, yet again,
she saw him at the center of a great
horde of women, each fawning over
him and pawing him as he stared ahead,
unaware of their silent cries for
his regard. His gaze was fixed on
Sarah, and, as soon as the women saw
this, they looked at Sarah, as well,
and grimaced. Sarah stopped and became
entranced by Jareth's focused eyes,
causing her to forget her purpose;
her lack of action cost her, for someone
passed before her, breaking her trance,
and, once they had passed, Jareth
and the throng of women had disappeared.
Her disappointment
did not have long to present itself,
for a firm hand placed itself on her
shoulder; she jerked about to find
herself face to face with Jareth,
the mask still covering his countenance.
He motioned for her to dance, and
she did not protest, her confusion
over his behavior ultimately overwhelming
her. Deja'vu swept over her and persisted,
yet she felt that something was not
quite right. She looked at him, eye
to eye, and brought a finger forth
to run it down the sharp, creme-colored
beak of the bird-like mask that he
wore. It all felt like a dream, yet
there was such a strong reality to
it all...not an image was blurry,
everything was precise, exact; even
the music was too real for it to be
a dream. Sarah looked longingly into
his eyes; who was this silent man?
It was Jareth in body, but not in
action. He danced carefully with
her; he was entranced, it seemed,
by the very presence of this lovely
woman he was dancing with. His grip
was gentle and his manner subordinate,
his face warm in color and his eyes
a hazy green.
"Who are you?"
Sarah asked. "Please tell me,
I am curious."
A sadness came into
his eyes and he held her closer.
"Do not ask that of me..just
let it be silent awhile longer."
"But I must know...you
are surely not Jareth," she persisted.
He gripped her hand
firmly and passionately. "Let
it be," he begged in a whisper.
"You sound so
afraid, as if you are hiding from
someone," she said quietly.
"Who are you? I will help you..."
She brought forth a trembling hand
toward the mask. His mouth turned
down into a frown, but he did not
fight her. Just as she began to raise
the wooden concealment, he whispered,
"Good-bye..."
Sarah was suddenly
within the castle beyond the goblin
city. Her friends were before her.
Hoggle stood and looked up at her
while Sir Didymus was atop Ambrosius
and Ludo stood between the two. They
just stood there, staring at her.
Sarah heard footsteps behind her and
turned around; there was Jareth once
again. He gazed at her as she did
at him; the intense green eyes grew
darker and blazed into a blue-white
light. He looked god-like and fearsome
as the blinding light that emitted
from his pupils lit up the once-darkened
space. His hand pivoted on his wrist
and revealed a crystal within his
palm. It caught the light from his
eyes and split it into several shards
of differently-colored light, as in
a prism. He threw it to her and she
caught it with ease. In response to
her catch, a deafening crash sounded
behind her. She jerked around to see
what it was and discovered that her
friends were now trapped behind an
iron cage.
"Need Sarah help,"
Ludo cried out desperately.
Sarah turned to look
at Jareth again. As she faced his
expressionless countenance, she felt
her face redden with bitter anger.
The violent impulse that had taken
her over was more than she could bear,
but she felt frozen in fear. If it
weren't for the eyes, she might be
able to fight him, but the eyes turned
him into an icon, a thing which any
harm upon would be blasphemy punishable
by death.
He chuckled at the
sight of her fear; the chuckle became
a laugh and slowly progressed to a
mad cackle. Then, suddenly, the laugh
ceased, and, to her horror, he began
to melt. His molten body spread out
over the floor and became one with
the stone floor. The ground began
to shake beneath her feet causing
the rock in the ground to crack and
crumble, forming a almost circular
shape about its jagged edges. Sarah
lost her balance and fell onto her
knees; lucky for her, she was at the
hub of the splitting ground, keeping
her from falling over the edge of
the great circular rift that had formed
about her. The ground beneath her
began to rise and rose higher and
higher into the sky until she was
far above the castle, far above the
entire Underground. She gripped the
crystal firmly against her chest as
the air began to thin. She watched
in silence as the clouds came ever
closer, and as the grey, stone floor
changed color and texture. She was
now atop an orange, sandy plateau
high above the lands of the underground.
The plateau stopped rising and a cave
rose from the sandy floor of the plateau.
She got to her feet
and cautiously looked over the edge.
The land below was now just grassy
plains that stretched to the horizon
in all directions. She turned and
looked curiously at the cave. She
saw the silhouette of a man begin
to emerge. Once completely out of
the cave's darkness, Sarah could see
that it was Jareth. He slowly progressed
towards her, but stopped a half a
foot away. Sarah looked over the edge
of the plateau and saw no means of
escape, unless she wished to jump.
She nervously watched as he raised
his hand to her neck and touched the
necklace that hung from it. He then
retreated and proceeded to the cave
again, taking slow, backward steps.
She watched with relief as his figure
disappeared back into the darkness
of the cave.
Just as she was counting
her blessings, the necklace started
to shiver and jingle. She looked down
and saw that the links in the chain
were disappearing one at a time, even
though the chain remained whole. The
length of the chain continued to become
smaller until the chain disappeared
from her sight and went beneath her
chin. She felt it tightening. She
grabbed it and jerked at it violently,
but to no avail. It was now tightening
around her throat. Her breathing became
more complicated by the moment and
she began to feel dizzy. She lost
her balance and took one fatal step
backward, finding herself suddenly
plummeting down the side of the plateau
in a deadly fall. She noted as she
fell that she gripped the crystal
firmly against her heaving chest,
as if keeping it intact would be her
last victory. She could see the land
come frighteningly close as black
and white spots came before her eyes,
finally filling her vision. She checked
once more that she was still holding
the crystal before she blacked out
due to lack of oxygen.
Then she woke up.
Sarah bolted upright
in her bed. She felt cold sweat trickle
down her back. Her hair clung to her
hot, sticky face as she held her hand
to her heaving chest, trying to calm
herself. The dream had been so frightening
and real. It loomed in her mind like
a prophecy of doom. Already, it was
passing away from her memory at her
sudden wakefulness, but she held onto
it tightly, wondering at the content.
The dream had presented two entirely
different sides of the same man, but
she was only familiar with one. Where
had the kindhearted man she had danced
with at first come from? And why
did he not wish her to know his identity?
.
She gripped her throat
and felt the chain. It hung loosely
about her neck. With a shaking hand,
she pulled her hair behind her ears.
She wet the inside of her dry mouth
and licked her lips. She laid back
down and tried to go to sleep, but
sleep would not come. She twisted
and turned in the unfamiliar bed and
tried to get comfortable. She blocked
thoughts from her mind, yet they continued
to push their way through. Finally,
she gave up and pulled off the covers.
She moved to the dresser and looked
at herself in the mirror; her hair
was not yet messy and sleep hadn't
yet formed in the corners of her eyes,
making her draw the conclusion that
she hadn't been sleeping long. She
pulled her robe from its position
on the chair and put it on.
As she sat in the chair
she examined the room from its converse
through the spotless mirror. The room
was really quite magnificent, and
she almost wished that it could truly
be her own. Tapestries and paintings
had always mesmerized her, and she
had hoped throughout her lifetime
that she might eventually own a home
and decorate it so. She stopped in
her examination abruptly when a certain
painting caught her eye. It was a
small painting of Jareth, almost hidden
entirely by the undone curtains of
her bed.
Then she noticed the
most peculiar thing about the hidden
painting. In the work, a goblin's
head poked out from behind the standing
Jareth; the young, goblin face belonged
to Isabelle. In her hands she held
a crystal, and, though it was not
depicted in so many images, Sarah
could see, by his expression and that
of the young girl's, that the girl
also held the heart of Jareth in her
hand. It now made sense to her! Jareth
had made himself a substitute father
to this little goblin. Sarah recalled
the way Isabelle had looked up to
him that evening with admiration;
she also recalled the way that Jareth
had, in his own awkward way, shown
fatherly love to the young goblin.
She had never seen him show such a
human kindness. Even though he still
seemed to treat Isabelle as a slave
somewhat, she could never recall him
to be that kind to anyone. She didn't
know why he was doing it, but she
wanted to find out. Maybe this was
part of that side of which she had
gotten a glimpse that evening; maybe
it was the instigation of her dream.
Or, maybe it was another way of him
trying to con her into faithfulness.
She couldn't tell.
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* *
Jareth sat in his throne,
disturbed by the events of that evening.
He was unsure of his reason for behaving
as he had, for, though the wine's
purpose was to make one lose control
of their faculties, it should not
alter one's behavior to such a degree
as it had. Sarah had behaved differently
than he had expected, as well, giving
him the desire to explore her feelings
of him by reading her diary. Over
the years he had watched her fill
it with words, and, throughout those
years, he had planned to read it someday.
Today was that day. He opened it
to the first page of writing. It read
as follows:
He isn't kind to anyone. As...and
I stood there, he moved the hands
of the clock a few hours ahead.
I cannot remember hating him more.
I said that it wasn't fair and he
said something like,"I wonder
what you compare that to, or, "I
wonder what your basis of comparison
is." Something like that. I
just wanted to...
It stopped there. It
was beginning to look as if she had
done nothing but feed her hatred towards
him during these five years. He sat
back in his throne and closed the
book, his line of vision drifting
to the right-hand wall, the painting
seeming much larger than it ever had
before. The enclosed surroundings
captured by his peripheral vision
escaped his notice for many moments
as he focused his attention on the
covered painting. Although he was
tempted to rise from his seat and
uncloak the picture of the woman who
had caused his feelings to become
turncoats, his violent and resentful
side overpowered the temptation. He
rubbed his chin as his mind worked
at the process of translating Sarah's
character.
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Sarah went back to
the dresser and focused an empty stare
towards her reflection. She abruptly
decided to spy on Jareth with the
mirror. Her mind raced from one consequence
to the other as she began to envision
the results of him seeing her efforts
to pry into his affairs. She finally
decided that she had nothing to lose,
for her friends were gone, unlikely
to be brought back to life, and he
still needed her for something. That
something was bothering her. She needed
to find out what that something was.
She closed her eyes
and channeled all of her thoughts
to the operation of the mirror. She
pushed her problems aside and allowed
herself only to think of the mirror.
She frequently opened her eyes to
check on her progress. Each time there
were no results.
She finally gave up.
She didn't know how she had received
the vision of her friends before,
but whatever she was doing at the
moment was not the proper approach.
Perhaps it had only been chance; maybe
luck had been on their side. Sarah
thought back to those hours ago; hours
that seemed like days. She saw the
image of her friends after she hade
heard the goblin scurrying down the
hall in need of a club to use on Ludo.
She remembered the hatred she had
felt towards Jareth at that moment
and how the mirror had showed her
her friends only moments after.
It suddenly hit her
that only hatred could power the mirror.
That, or possibly strong emotion.
Hatred was the strongest emotion she
felt of late.
Attempting to bring
her most despised memories of Jareth
to mind, she clenched her fists and
gritted her teeth. Memory after memory
flooded her scattered mind, only to
leave her emotion neutral. The arrival
of each horrific picture accompanied
a vision whose sole content was the
portrait of Jareth and the small goblin
face that peered curiously from behind
the king's throne. At the slightest
feeling of anger, Sarah unconsciously
brought to mind an image of the recent
past -- the image of Jareth bringing
his hand to her face, gazing into
her eyes with intent emotion.
Within moments, all
anger had eluded Sarah and only sympathy
and respect remained. A new battle
had begun within Sarah, and the feeling
that the battle would last for a long
period of time filled her with trepidations
and wonders that built within her
at the passing of each moment. Once
these feelings reached their climax,
her mirror image shimmered and a vision
of Jareth replaced it.
Reclining in his throne,
Jareth's image stared emptily at the
opposite wall. An amazing combination
of serenity and frustration could
be read from his pale, thin face as
he propped his fist against his chin.
Sarah observed with awe as the king
she had so long known to be noisy
and violent sat quietly and brooded.
If only for a moment,
she no longer felt as if she was looking
at a man of insane delusions and violent
notions -- her eyes saw a man of great
confusion and pain who was never brought
to terms with his anger and frustration.
Never dealing with it, he seemed to
have battled it without progress or
consciousness until he had finally
made a compromise; he had accepted
it as a part of his character that
could not be rid of. She saw the
very man that she had danced with
in her sleep that night; a man who
was bitterly submissive to his own
self.
She followed his intense
stare and saw that it was fixed on
a covered painting. He rose from
his throne and went to uncover the
painting. Pulling a golden cord at
its side, the curtain slid away to
reveal Sarah, age 15, staring into
space. She wore the gown from the
masquerade ball, and her hair was
drawn back at the temples. A strange
glow surrounded her figure, and gave
her an angelic appearance. Every
detail was perfect...
Having the chance to
look him over without interruption,
she carefully analyzed the king with
great interest. Age was not revealed
on his face -- he didn't seem any
older than when Sarah had last seen
him. His eyes were now an intense
blue and stood out remarkably against
his pallid complexion. His wispy,
whitish-blond hair was drawn back
into a pony tail, unlike earlier that
day when it had been unrestrained
and had eerily but majestically cascaded
from his head like a cream-colored
fountain of water. The garment he
wore was made of off-white and light
grey silks, cut off at the waist in
the front to show his white tights,
but long enough to touch the ground
in the rear. A silver amulet hung
from a leather strap around his neck
and could be seen easily due to the
low-cut collar of his outfit; in his
hands was an open book with a cloth
cover.
Sarah wondered what
he might be reading. Resembling something
she had read once, the book poked
at Sarah's memory, but she couldn't
remember where she had seen it.
Figuring out what role
the book had played in her life plagued
Sarah's mind and caused her to leave
all other thoughts in oblivion. Within
moments, the answer came to her.
"My diary!"
she exclaimed.
The image of Jareth
jerked his head to face her. Understanding
of his reaction flashed through Sarah's
mind as she recalled the fact that
sound could be transmitted by the
mirror, as well as visual images.
Jareth rose gracefully
from his throne and walked toward
the mirror, a blank expression on
his face. As he stopped, a glass
sphere glistened in his formerly empty
hand. Glancing at it and then at
Sarah, he brought it to eye level.
Sarah sat motionless, curiosity and
fear tensing her muscles and freezing
her in place. Momentarily she came
to her senses and prepared to run
for her bed to escape the obligation
of looking into the mirror. As she
pushed herself up, gripping the arms
of the chair, Jareth lowered the crystal
and gazed into her eyes. She let go
of the chair and relaxed. Impulses
were sent by her brain to her legs,
commanding them to move, but the limbs
never responded.
Paralyzed, Sarah sensed
Jareth prodding her mind, felt the
light touches and breezes that blew
through her head like those of a cool,
summer night. The glistening crystal
sphere was pushed through the mirror
by Jareth as it hung in the air like
a thick bubble in front of Sarah.
As sweet music drifted slowly into
the room, the sphere swished and swirled
in transparent rainbow colors before
her. The ball bobbed up and down
like a carousel horse in turns about
her head, but never floated to the
ground.
The music filled Sarah's
mind, making her feel peaceful and
calm, cushioning her mind and weighing
down on her eyelids. Moving her attention
from the bubble to the mirror, Sarah
sleepily gazed at Jareth.
Blackness began to
swallow her surroundings and, before
it could take in the mirror and the
image of the Goblin King, Sarah saw
a beautiful smile widen on his face.
He mouthed two words.
"Sweet dreams."
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