| He was a shadow
against the moon lit night sky. Dressed completely in black. The
only thing that made one realize that he was not a shadow was the
spiky blond hair, white in the moonlight, that whipped around his
pale face. The night, his kingdom, were all unchanged before him.
Despite time, they remained immortal like him. Change was a strange
concept to this place. He had not changed much in his lifetime.
He remained the insolent, but lonely King. When change came, he
did not know how to cope with it. She had changed his entire world
and it had never again been the same.
I should have
kept you
I should have tried
I should have been a wiser kind of guy
I miss you
It didn't matter how
many times he stood on the balcony looking out at the maze of walls,
and hedges. Everything reminded him of her. He was angry with himself
when it was over that he had not tried harder to win her, to convince
her to stay. She didn't need her brother. She needed him. He desperately
wanted to believe that.
Give me wings
Give me space
Give me money for a change of face
Those noisy rooms and passion pants
I loved you
He had not known the
emotion. It was so foreign to him that he had fought and struggled
against it with all that he could. But even he, with all his magic
and power was no match for it. It had gripped him tightly and wouldn't
relinquish its hold. He was powerless to prevent its onslaught and
when it overtook him he didn't wish to deny it. He embraced it with
all that he was. He tried to show her, but he was naive. It didn't
matter that he was hundreds of years old, immortal. For he had never
known love and he didn't know how to claim it from another. Or how
to prove that he could possess it.
He thought he had
done the right thing. Offering her the dreams so dear to her. He
had even offered himself. But he had not gone about things the correct
way. And even if he had, he still would not have won her heart.
For she was a child and she too did not know the true meaning of
love.
Where's the morning
in my life?
Where's the sense in staying
right?
Who said 'time is on my side'?
Time was a curse,
a thorn in his side. Time was what pushed her away from him. Time
had limits after all and she had wisely used her time. She had defeated
him. She had defeated him well. Time was his betrayer now. He had
watched the minutes and hours go by and still she was not with him.
Still he was alone.
I've got ears
and eyes
and nothing in my life
But I'll survive
your naked eyes
I'll survive
At times if felt like
he wouldn't. He wanted to give up and not go on. But he was a King,
even if his subjects were sometimes stupid, and they made a mess
of his beautiful castle. He was still a King and King's did not
give up.
You alone across
the floor
You and me and nothing
more
You're the great mistake I never made
The dreams didn't
want to fade and sometimes the dreams were all that kept him sane.
A crystal ball room and a beautiful young girl on the border of
becoming a woman. A King, dressed in his finest, watching her move
through the room, waiting for the perfect moment to make his move
and sweep her into his arms. He wanted to live in that dream and
never leave. Reality be damned.
I never lied to
you,
I hated when you lied
But I'll survive
your naked eyes
He had never lied
to her. He was everything she wanted him to be and more. He would
have offered her the dreams she wanted. He would have been her slave
if only she had stayed with him. He would have done anything for
her.. Anything...
But she had lied to
him. She lied to herself when she spoke those words. She was frightened
and misguided. She was too young to understand. It wasn't a game
in the end. He didn't want her brother...he wanted her...
But she was gone now.
And she had been gone for years. For 20 long years he had thought
about her. Still pining for her and the love he would never receive
from her. But he lived on. He was a King after all. Even if he was
a Goblin King.
"I'll survive..."
he said softly into the night.
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