| Sealed
with a kiss...
It was nearly 6 when
Sarah got home. She was tired and a little cranky from such a long
day. She was glad that Ary was at Toby's. She needed the peace and
quiet as much as she loved her daughter. Her boss Jake had once
again asked her to type up and work on a report for him. He was
pleased with her work and had given her an assignment to work on
over the weekend. He promised her extra pay for her time spent on
it. Extra money meant buying extra groceries or being a step closer
to having the mortgage paid off.
She walked into her
home to find Jareth sitting in the recliner his boots crossed at
the ankles and propped up on the foot stool. He was involved in
a movie and he didn't even notice her come in. It wasn't until she
opened the hall closet and hung her coat up that he realized she
had come home.
"Sarah. How was
your day?" he got up quickly from the chair, remote in a gloved
hand, and he fiddled with the buttons trying to shut the damned
thing off. He finally figured it out and tossing the remote back
onto the chair, he followed her into the kitchen. "Can I make
you some dinner?" He offered eagerly.
"No thanks. I'm
not very hungry right now. I'll have some soup later." She
walked slowly to the table and put down a folder.
"Are you all
right?"
"I'm just tired.
Long day and I have some work to do." She glanced up at him
noticing that his hair was damp. "Took a shower?"
He nodded. "I
must get one of those for my castle." She grinned, but it faded
quickly. She walked into the living room and returned with a large
black case.
"What's that?"
"A typewriter.
I think I'm the only one I know of who can't afford a computer.
This still works though so I'm fine with it." She opened the
case and he watched her pull out the strange looking machine with
buttons that had little letters on them. She opened the folder and
sat down pulling out papers, beginning to work. Jareth sighed.
"You just got
home from work and you're going to work more?"
"I want to get
this done so that I can have the rest of my weekend off. I have
laundry to do tomorrow and the floors need cleaning, the house needs
vacuuming."
He nodded and left
the kitchen so that she could work, but she could tell that he was
unhappy with her decision. Truth be, that what she told him was
only half of the truth. She did need to clean and do laundry, but
she was also a little worried about spending time alone with him.
She knew that she was an adult but she was also one who had not
been in a man's arms in 8 years. Not that she had much time to dwell
on that fact. Aryanna needed constant love and attention. She knew
she could control herself, but what about him? He had said that
he never stopped loving her. Was that true now? She shook her head,
banishing the thoughts and watched him head back into the living
room. He didn't put on the tv but instead sat down by the bay window
in the same rocking chair he had seen Sarah rocking in days before.
He listened to Sarah
type away for over two hours. The steady sound of her fingers hitting
the keys relaxed him. He finally got up from the chair and went
to see how she was doing. She was in the same position, sitting
and typing away.
He walked to the
sink and realized that he had forgotten to wash Aryanna's breakfast
dishes. He decided to wash them by hand so he could watch her work.
She looked so serious when she typed and so beautiful. She had written
something by hand and was copying it and typing it up. Her long
dark hair was pulled back into a messy ponytail with a few strands
dangling in her face. Every so often she would tuck a strand behind
her ear, just to have to have it fall forward for her to tuck back
later. As he was drying the last dish with a dishtowel he noticed
that she appeared to be in discomfort. She kept reaching for her
neck, rubbing the back of it with her fingers.
She was nearly finished.
One more page and she would be done with her extra work. She felt
rather then heard her stomach growl but it was forgotten an instant
later as soft leather encased fingers touched her neck and began
to massage the sore flesh. She tensed immediately.
"Relax."
His voice was a soft whisper, his warm breath traveling down her
neck and under the top of her sweater. He seemed to know exactly
where she hurt and his touch felt so good that she couldn't help
but relax. She closed her eyes and lost herself in the moment. He
massaged the muscles in her neck for a while longer, kneading carefully
with his fingers the tender flesh. Sarah's head fell back and she
repressed a groan. "Better?" he asked slowly pulling his
hands away.
"Yes...thank
you.." he nodded. She flushed as he stood beside her, gazing
down at her with those beautiful mismatched eyes. His hair had dried
and it fell in soft wisps around his face. Her stomach growled again
and she grinned, thankful for the distraction. "I guess it's
telling me it's hungry."
"It's telling
you that you eat like a bird. You're going to get sick if you don't
eat something."
She stretched and
gazed at the type writer. "I only have one page left, I'll
finish it and then eat." She turned her attention back to the
type writer and he sat in the seat beside her, resting his elbow
on the table and his face in the palm of his hand as he watched
her work.
"You're exhausted."
He said just after she had finished.
"I'm all right.
Besides I can sleep in the morning. Ary won't be waking me up early
to watch cartoons with her so I can sleep."
"Maybe I'll wake
you up to watch cartoons with me."
One of her brows rose.
"Do you even know what cartoons are?"
"No." he
told her casually. "But the thought of waking you up is an
exciting idea."
"Hardly."
She told him, rolling her eyes. "And if you try it tomorrow,
you will see why my brother nicknamed me 'Morning Bear.' "
Jareth smiled sweetly
and she caught a glimpse of his teeth. "How is your brother?
He must be 20 years old by now."
"Yes. He'll be
21 in a month and a half. Time has certainly come and gone. It seems
like just yesterday, he was still in diapers. Now he's an adult
and watching my daughter."
Jareth was quiet for
a moment and then he regarded her thoughtfully. "Do you ever
regret wishing him away to me?" She didn't answer him right
away and to him it felt as if his words had been a shout, still
lingering in the quiet air.
She shook her head,
more strands of hair escaping from her ponytail and falling into
her face. "No. Wishing him away was one of the best things
I ever did." She answered honestly.
A brow rose over a
blue eye. "Really?"
"Really. I didn't
like Toby at first. I didn't like much of anything back then. My
mom left me when I was 10, she was always off touring with Jeremy,
her co worker. She was too busy to take care of me so my dad got
custody. Then he met Karen and before I knew it they were married
and then Toby was born. I hated it. I was always an only child and
suddenly this little brat comes along and gets all the attention
and all the best toys. But after I won him back, we became really
close. Babysitting him wasn't such a big deal anymore. I would tell
him stories and we would watch movies. We grew up and as we both
got older he became my best friend. We could tell each other anything.
Things we couldn't tell Dad or Karen. I hate to think about what
would have happened if I hadn't wished him away. My decisions with
Toby were some of the only right decisions I've made in my life
and I wouldn't take them back for anything."
"Give yourself,
more credit." He reached across the table, tucking the loose
strands from her ponytail behind her ear. His touch amazed her,
so soft, so gentle and not the least bit frightening to her. He
gave her a slight smile and then stood, moving to the cupboard opening
two of the doors. "Which kind of soup would you like?"
"Jareth I can
make my own soup." She said, collecting her papers and putting
the typewriter away in its case.
"I'm sure that
you're quite capable, but then again so am I."
"Jareth, you
burned your hand the last time you cooked." She rose from the
chair and moved to him, standing by his side. He watched her with
a growing curiosity. She reached for his hands and took them into
her own, turning them so that his palms faced up. "Which one
did you burn?" she looked from one to the other.
He pulled his hands
away from her quickly and she reached for them again and this time
she didn't relinquish her hold.
"You can either
tell me or I'll remove your gloves one at a time until I find the
burn myself. Either way I'll find out."
He let out an aggravated
sigh and pulled his left hand from hers leaving his right. She carefully
pulled the glove back and off.
"Dear God Jareth!"
She gasped. The underside of his pale hand was red, raw and blistered
in a few places. "You should have told me, this could get infected."
She touched the flesh gently with her fingers and he winced trying
to pull his hand from hers. "I need to put something on this.
Come upstairs with me." He followed her obediently up the blue
carpeted stairs, his hand still within her grasp.
They went into the
bathroom and Sarah walked with him to the sink, gently resting his
hand against the cool white porcelain. She reached above the sink,
opening doors to a small medicine cabinet and pulled out a few bottles.
"This is going to sting, so be forewarned." He nodded
and clenched his teeth together as she dabbed the wound with medicine.
Then she put gauze and a large band-aid over it. "That should
help it heal. I'll clean it twice a day."
"Sarah I'm fine,
there is no need to fuss." He told her pulling his hand away
possessively. She just watched him. God he acted like a child sometimes.
"You're not fine."
She put the bottles back into the cabinet and shut the doors. She
turned to him, leaning against the sink and counter. "Couldn't
you have healed that with your magic?"
He shook his head.
" I can take the pain away for short periods of time but I
couldn't heal the injury completely."
"You can reorder
time and all that other fancy stuff and you can't heal yourself?"
"I told you I
have limits. Besides I'm not a healer; I'm a Goblin King."
"Yeah well you're
at my mercy then Goblin King, until this heals." She grinned.
He didn't reply but quickly pulled his glove back onto his hand.
They made their way
back downstairs where she pulled out a can of soup and divided it
into bowls. She heated each of them separately and placed them on
the table along with two glasses of juice, spoons and napkins.
"I'm not an invalid.
I could have made dinner." Jareth told her as he took a seat.
He was supposed to be helping her, not the other way around!
"I didn't say
that you were." She tested her soup and found it just right
and sipped it slowly. "How did things go this morning with
Ary?"
"Fine. Although
one of your neighbors decided to make an appearance." He told
her taking a sip of his own soup.
Sarah lowered the
spoon from her lips. "Oh no. Who?"
"Linda. Nosy
woman. Asking me question after question. I told her I was a friend
of the family and Ary was kind enough to follow along."
"Ugh, Linda always
has to be in the center of everything. She's a trouble maker."
"She gave you
trouble when he left you didn't she?"
She quickly looked
away from him, and concentrated on stirring her soup. "Jareth
I don't want to talk about this right now." Damn him. Why did
he need to know about things like this?
"All right, but
should you change your mind. I'm here to listen, to anything, anytime."
"Thanks."
He nodded and they ate in silence.
"Well that hit
the spot." She announced standing and gathering her dishes.
"Would you like to watch a movie?" She asked walking to
the sink.
Jareth stood, following
her to the sink with his own dirty dishes. "You really should
get some sleep."
She smiled. "I
can sleep in the morning, remember?"
"Not if I wake
you up.." he teased.
She came very close
to slapping him. She started to fill the sink but he gripped her
gently by the arms, pulling her out of the way.
"You made dinner,
I will wash the dishes." He told her. He snapped his fingers
and the dishes were gone.
"That's cheating."
"Your point?"
"That's not fair."
Jareth grinned at her as the words fell forth from her lips.
"The old Sarah
hasn't gone anywhere." He smiled.
She shook her head
and he followed her into the living room. Sarah sat on the couch
and he sat beside her, but not too close. He watched her as she
flipped through the channels. By the bog, she was beautiful. Her
long dark hair, creamy skin, those hazel eyes that made him weak
in the knees when they focused on him.
"Jareth?"
"Huh?" His
eyes widened and he glanced at her.
"I asked if you
wanted to watch First Knight. It might be a movie that you'd like."
He nodded and she got up, putting a tape into the VCR. She pushed
play and sat down beside him on the couch.
Both Sarah and Jareth
were very interested in the movie. They made small comments about
this or that as they watched but for most of the time they remained
silent, watching and listening. Jareth tried to pay attention to
the movie but his eyes had a mind of their own and they kept focusing
on the woman sitting beside him. How would he survive this weekend
without touching her or holding her? Without telling her how much
she meant to him?
The movie finally
ended and Sarah reached for the remote to rewind the movie and shut
the tv off. She flipped a light switch on the wall beside her and
a lamp across the room lit up. She glanced down realizing that during
the course of the movie she had stretched out over the couch, leaving
Jareth very little space. The gentleman he seemed to be, he had
given her all the space she needed without complaint and he was
nearly sitting on the arm of the couch. He sat up just watching
her. She stared at him and a lop-sided grin touched her lips.
"What?"
He asked, cocking his head to the side.
"This is just
so weird. The two of us sitting here watching a movie."
"Is that bad?"
"I didn't say
it was, just weird."
"How so?"
"Jareth, C'mon,
you have to admit that sitting here and watching a movie with me
is strange."
"It's not what
I am accustomed to, but that doesn't make it any less enjoyable."
"I didn't say
that either. It's just felt like the last few days have been a dream,
that..." She flashed him a brilliant smile. "That I don't
want to wake up from." He opened his mouth to protest and she
waved a hand at him. "I know I know. It's not a dream, it's
real." She sat up and moved a little closer to him. "Why
is it that you won't tell me why you're helping? Why does that make
you so uncomfortable?"
"Does it matter
why?" He asked.
"I suppose it
does. This just doesn't seem like you. I know that you have changed,
but still, this is just really weird. You were so cold, cruel, manipulative
and arrogant. But now...I don't see any of that. Why are you so
eager to do what Ary wants? And why on earth would you want to help
me after what I did to you?"
"Sarah..."
"No seriously
Jareth. You were trying to tell me you loved me and I said the words.
I turned your world upside down."
Jareth shifted, moving
closer to her and pulled one knee up toward him, resting his boot
on the edge of the coffee table. "You did turn my world upside
down Sarah, but not in the way that you think. I realized that you
were too young, I realized it too late. My pride blinded me and
I tried to win and tried to admit what I felt at the same time.
I failed with both miserably. But it isn't about winning or losing
anymore. It's not about mazes of stone, screaming babies or pride
and deceptions. This certainly isn't a game anymore. It's real life."
"But life is
a game. We're all pawns on some board and someone else is in charge,
moving the pieces around, shaping our future."
Jareth shook his head.
"We may not be in charge of specific events but in the end
we are in charge. We are in charge of how we handle situations,
if we move on or stay in the same place."
Sarah lowered her
eyes from him. Her voice came out as a whisper. "Do you think
that it's my own fault that I fell so far? That Adam left me?"
He shook his head
and reached for her, brushing back her hair from her face. "If
you want my honest opinion, the man who left you was an idiot. I
don't know the exact situations and your past together but I know
any man who left you, is a fool. He left you with child, no less.
As far as I'm concerned he's lower then the slime on the bottom
of the bog of eternal stench."
Sarah let out a soft
chuckle, and tried to hide the tears that formed in her eyes. Jareth
didn't miss them and he touched her face smoothing her cheek with
a leather encased thumb.
"Sarah you are
too strong of a person to carry on the life you are leading."
He told her. "The Sarah I knew would never have allowed me
to see her cry, she would never have been so calm in my presence."
'The old Sarah is
gone, Jareth and she isn't coming back. That was 20 years ago."
"I realize that."
"Do you? Or are
you stuck in the past? Too much crap has happened and it changed
me. I'm not the person I used to be." She pulled away from
him drawing her knees up to her chin. "I cry a lot, I break
down easily, I'm an easy target for public and work related ridicule.
I'm not the spunky, strong willed teenager that I used to be. I'm
a middle aged, single mother.....who is..." She squeezed her
eyes shut. She didn't want to cry. She would not cry. "Who
is totally lost....I don't know if I'm coming or going. If it's
day or if it's night. There are only two things that I am sure of
in my life right now."
"What are you
sure of Sarah?" He moved closer to her, letting his hands gently
slide up and down her arms.
"That I love
my daughter and....and" She turned away from him, gathering
the little courage she could find within herself. When she found
it she looked at him, tears still blurring her hazel eyes. "I
know that I don't want you to leave me..."
Jareth blinked, surprised
by her words but he forced himself to recover quickly. He didn't
want to give her the wrong impression "Sarah, I'm not going
anywhere." He said softly. "I will stay as long as you
and Aryanna want me to stay."
"I don't even
know you. I don't know what your favorite color is, or your favorite
food. I don't know what makes you angry or happy. All I know is
that... I don't want you to go."
"Then I won't."
He ran his thumb over her cheek again and she let her face rest
in his hand.
"I can't give
you any promises for the future Jareth. I...I don't even know what
I feel for you right now. I like you. I know I like what you have
become, but I can't promise anything more then friendship. I can't
and I won't offer anything more right now. Aryanna comes first.
Before me and before you."
"Then we shall
be friends, and we will stay such until you decide otherwise."
She smiled brightly and Jareth felt his breath catch in his throat.
God he loved her and he would do anything for her. "Let us
seal our friendship with something. Something that will never happen
again unless you will it."
She nodded and took
a deep breath. He hesitantly leaned his face closer to hers. She
knew what he was going to do and the truth hit her hard, but she
wanted him to do this. She closed her eyes and she felt his breath
warm on her cheeks. After what felt like minutes his lips gently
and hesitantly touched hers. It was a soft, gentle and completely
harmless kiss he placed on her lips. A kiss from a friend. He began
to pull back but she leaned forward kissing him in return. She could
feel and hear his gasp of surprise but she ignored it and concentrated
on him, pressing her lips against his.
It had been 8 years
since she had kissed someone; 8 years since she had been in someone's
arms. 3 of those years, she had not been selfish. She had not dated,
even when she wanted to because of Aryanna and her fear. But Aryanna
didn't fear Jareth so neither should she. She would accept his help
and she wasn't afraid to show him that she wanted it, more then
anything else she wanted right now.
He didn't return her
kiss at first, due to shock or because he didn't want to push her,
she didn't know. All she knew was that his hair tickled her face,
and his lips were soft and warm against her own. He smelled like
her herbal shampoo and like Dove soap. He slowly began to return
her kiss, gently moving his lips over hers as if she were something
fragile and he was afraid that she would break.
He let her make the
decisions. She broke the kiss first, taking a quick breath and immediately
leaning back into him, not just with her lips, but with her entire
body. Her arms wrapped around his neck, pulling him closer to her.
She could feel the warmth of him against her, his hands, one in
her hair the other slowly sliding down her back. Her kisses became
more demanding, as she wanted more of him. Her breathing and heartbeat
quickened and then suddenly his lips were gone, the warmth, the
feel of his body was gone and she felt cold and alone.
She opened her eyes
to see him sitting at the opposite end of the couch trying to compose
himself. Trying to slow his breathing and his racing heart. He watched
her as she gazed at him. She looked disappointed.
"We have to stop
Sarah. You don't know what you feel for me Sarah. I will not let
something we both may regret happen."
She nodded, thankful
that one of them had come to their senses. She realized it should
have been her. They sat for a short time, their breathing returning
to normal. She reached for him and he watched her curiously, his
glance and position guarded yet not unapproachable. She leaned against
him, her head resting on his chest beneath his chin.
"What did I ever
do to deserve you?" She whispered. He shivered as her warm
breath brushed over the exposed skin of his chest.
He smiled to himself,
but didn't answer, instead gently running his gloved hands over
her, soothing and relaxing her. Her breathing became shallow and
he knew that she had fallen asleep. He held her for a while longer
and then he carefully lowered her onto the couch, laying her head
on the pillow and draping 2 blankets over her. He smiled as he watched
her roll over and begin to dream.
"You loved me
Sarah.." he finally answered. "Even though I didn't learn
that until 20 years later.. you once loved me." He leaned over
placing a soft kiss on her forehead and then he moved to the recliner.
He sat, leaning back and he put his feet up on the footstool He
watched Sarah sleep for a little while and then his own eyelids
felt heavy and he let them fall. Sleep took him quickly and soon
he was dreaming of the raven haired woman who lay a few feet away
from him...
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